*
*
*
*
*
*
*
*

Sleep With All The Sheets Off

Baring Your Mattress, Baring Your Soul

2010/08/04

The Future is Bright

Listening To:
Feeling:
Eating/Drinking:

I want to try and get back into this. Whilst I was at uni this all so fell away from being part of my routine. I think it was because I was content with what I was doing. But that should be shared and documented too, I can't just use this as a place to write when i'm not happy!

So this week I cut some of my ribbons off. I've been tying ribbons on my wrist for years, usually around a significant event, or time, something that I want to mark. I've now removed them all apart from the one I tied on when my Dad died, which has now been on my wrist for over 5 years. Feels like one I can't quite get rid of yet. I just felt it was time to shed old bindings of the past, and focus on the future!

My life is finally taking shape. In September I will be the class teacher of a whole class of 8 and 9 year olds for a year. They will be my first class, I will teach them, they will learn, we will laugh. To think I will forever be their year 4 teacher, forever part of their own mini histories. I do like thinking about that thought very much. Like being a little bit more immortal.

Having a driving licence was something I thought i'd never achieve. It took me 7 tests and so many sleepless nights, but getting there and knowing that I achieved, it makes up for any kind of fail I felt.

And as for my romantic life, well i've spoken about that before. I don't think of that as the reason why i'm so happy with life - I don't think that would be healthy as these things don't always go the way you want. But I do think of it as icing on the cake, and perhaps something that wouldnt have happened if I hadn't felt brave and confident to go into it in the first place. Everyday I feel more confident, everyday I feel love for myself, which 5, 6 years ago I never thought i'd feel. I suppose I can just look at this as the beginning of me.

What can I say, it's time to look to the future and think pink.

Grace

x

bebegracie at 11:36 p.m.

0 Comments so far

previous | next | Random